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Birthday

2009-08-27T23:10:00.002+08:00

thank for the lovely cake .

yummy hehehe......

when i saw the cake ,

lolz my tears like wanna to fall out liao ,

luckily when i reach hm then Sob abit lol.

im tired to blogging liao

gtg to my lalaland

thank for the day u(^_^)u

A Birthday Wish

2009-08-27T00:01:00.001+08:00

Today's my birthday, so I'm not going to write
Something really depressing, no sorrow, no fights
my mind should be pure, free of all doubt
Happiness and joy is what this day's about

I've been waiting for this day for the whole year
My mind holds wondrous thoughts, knowing no fear
Nothing seems hard, everything's just a breeze
Clear blue skies and golden beaches in your dreams.

One year closer to finally achieving my goal
Tears of happiness surge in my mind and soul
There's nothing left to say; all has been said
Thankful thoughts to God running through my head.

Sometimes, late at night, i lie under the stars
Gazing at the heavens, shining gaily from afar
And i can see Her face, looking down from above
Once more thanking Her, filling Her heart with love

Time suddenly stops; it feels as if my birthday's always here
Mind going in a haze, no more is anything clear
All you can see are your friends' smiles and their care

Possessing an admirable quality that is ever so rare
The day is nearly over and the night fades in
My frowns forever replaced by my flawless grins
Every now and then, my heart gives a jump
Realizing that my moment of glory is almost up

But inside me know that i'll never forget
How could i when it is here my heart is set?
And in my dreams, i can see myself soar
Thinking of the happiness my birthday always bore.

Hope my last 3 wish comeing soon
im really needed to get back what
i lost in few year .

Always In My Heart

2009-08-23T11:17:00.000+08:00

It was cold, extremely cold. The devilish howls of the wind did not make me
feel any better. In fact, it taunted me with strong gales of freezing air, biting
through my skin. I shuddered. Thunderous growls from angry storm clouds
shook the world around me, accompanied by illuminated streaks of lightning
that forcefully struck and destroyed everything.

For once, I felt this mounting fear building up deep within myself. I was afraid,
without you by my side. I enjoyed reminiscing on the days that we are together;
huddling by the fireplace on stormy nights together, kissing in the morning
sun together, kicking autumn leaves with hands held tight together, reading a
book by the beach together, gazing at each other during romantic dinners,
talking about our dreams while lying side by side in bed, frolicking in the sea
together. We were just so comfortable having each other as a life-long
companion, just so in love, just having so much fun and just knowing we will
be there for each other. The feeling is simply magical.

I could never bear to leave you, I could never live without you, and you are me,
the reason for my existence. You are everything that I ever wanted in a friend.
You are my best friend. The one I know I can always count on forever, the one I
know that will never leave me in times of adversity and the one that loves me
with all her heart. But alas, we are apart but you will always be beside me, be
with me, in the most scared place of my heart – my temple of love.

I had to choke back my tears as sensations of warmth shook me. Just
thinking of you was enough to invigorate all my senses to make me feel so
alive, to feel you, thinking of me too. As hearts connect, I felt the emotions
running through my every single cell in my body. I felt so snug at that moment,
despite the given dire weather conditions as though you are by my side.
Thoughts of you had always warmed my heart so much that it felt like you were
holding me tight in your arms, loving me so.

As I was lingering on the sweetness of the moment, a bright light descended
before me.

At that instance, a feeling of familiarity overcame me. I was face to face with
this pair of beautiful blue eyes that I had always sought solace in. I felt the soft
caress of your tender fingers scaling down my cheek. I trembled with
excitement, knowing it was you.

You kissed me softly upon my lips, leaving me hungering for more. My heart
was racing and my surroundings seem to be Utopia as your beauty
transformed everything for me.

I needed you so much.

I needed you to just hug me tight and say you love me, over again and again.

Having you leaning against my chest seemed to appease the angry weather
gods as our true love manifested to the heavens as a feeling of purity. The
dark clouds parted, with the sun’s rays streaming in, reviving Mother Nature
from her deep slumber in this desolate part of the earth.

As the image of you faded away slowly, being blown away by the wind with the
morning dew forming the most memorable backdrop, I know that you, you will
always reside in my heart forever, no matter the distance between us because
true love exists, anywhere…

Living In Our Memory !

2009-06-22T01:53:00.002+08:00

Sitting in my bedroom alone.
Listening to songs we used to listen to.
Thinking back to when we met.
Thinking how much I really miss you.

Looking at our photo,
tears fill my eyes.
Looking at how happy we were.
How I didn't realise.

I miss everything.
From dancing, to fighting,
to you holding me close to your heart.
I miss our cuddles.
I try to forget but I cant.

2 years since we met.
Its gone so fast.
Yet it still feels like just yesterday,
since we were living our perfect past.

You told me the past has gone,
and that we remain apart.
You also said you see me in your future,
and that I'll always have your heart.

Those words I'll never forget.
Because I believe every word.
I also believe in never-ending love,
and a love that is no longer heard.

So forever I'll whisper.
I'll whisper 'I love you.'
I hope you hear me calling,
because you know my whispers true.

Tell Me What To Do

2009-06-21T09:55:00.002+08:00

I could never explain why I love you so much,
It's your eyes, your smile, your soft gentle touch.

The first time I saw you I knew it was meant to be,
You'd spend your lifetime giving your love to me.

But I took your trust and broke your heart,
I pushed you away, forever to be apart.

The one thing I love more than life itself,
Ran away from me to be by herself.

I walk this house calling your name,
It seems so empty, not nearly the same.

I can't help but cry as I look at through your things
What hurts the most is to see your engagement ring

Sitting in it's case, inside this wooden box
I should take the key and see if it locks

And throw it in the woods, to try to ease my pain,
but it wouldn't matter, it still be the same.

All of these memories are inside my head,
sometimes I'd think I'd rather be dead.

Than to live my life without my one true love,
You're my shining star, my beautiful little dove.

I'd give everything to turn back time,
Back to the days when you were mine.

You were happy and our love was strong,
Neither of us could do no wrong.

I'm down on my knees and I'm begging you
tell me what it is I need to do.

To win back your love and rebuild our trust,
Cause to hold you again is an absolute must!

Thinking Of You

2009-06-20T15:50:00.002+08:00

I have been thinking of you,
And the way you make me feel.
I'm getting scared now
Cause these feelings feel so real,
I've always felt it,
But it's never been this strong
I cannot fall now
I've got to hold on.
When my eyes are on you
It's so hard to look away.
When its time too leave you
I so badly want to stay.
I want to tell you
What's running through my head
But for now I'll just keep it to myself instead,
Cause I want nothing to jeopardize
The friendship that we created over the years,
And I don't want to be left
Heartbroken and in tears.
I want you to know how I feel,
And that I mean it, sometimes
I just want to scream it, its real.
These words have been bottled up inside
They explain the feelings I hide
And the failed times I've tried.
I don't know how much longer I will keep this in,
Thinking of ways,
Don't know where to begin.
Deeply confused,
Don't know what to do,
I'll just leave it be, wait and see,
It will happen if it's meant to be.
I have your friendship,
But I really want your heart
This is tearing me apart;
I don't know what to do
I just want to be with you,
Make you happy and make you smile.
Though times I cant see you for a while,
Its only cause my hearts desires can't be filled.
It's hard to know you're with someone else
When all I want is you here with me,
I want to show you what this could be;
I don't want to tell you
I want you to just open up your eyes and see.
I want you to feel it,
The feelings that I feel,
I really want to show them,
These feelings are so real.
But I can't show you,
I probably never will because
I want to walk, but your standing still.
These are the feelings inside of me,
That are locked away
Waiting to be free,
Drowning my heart in misery.

Wait for you

2008-08-14T20:22:00.002+08:00

If only I had the guts, to tell you how I feel,
I would hold you forever, and show you that I'm real.
And if I could, I would capture every memory that we shared,
Seal and treasure it, never forget the times we cared...

But right now, I just have to let our fate flow,
Going down the right path, the one that we both know.
I don't want to admit- too many feelings of mine,
In case I scare you off, but I really am genuine.

I just hope that what I see, of you is just the truth,
Because I’d love for both of us to eventually pursue.
I’m standing here, as patient as I know how,
And even if you disagree, my mind will disavow.

I wish we both could just want the same thing,
As each day progresses, happiness is what I’d bring.
You know that we are made for each other,
So just give me a chance, just don’t say never.

You really worry me when you blow hot and cold,
If there is a problem just let your mind unfold.
And I know that you're afraid of commitment,
I can be too, but just think of the times we've spent.

So as time moves on, I hope we get together,
So when the time is right, I can say - always and forever.
And right now, these feelings I have to hide,
Because I’m afraid, ill lose this chance for life.

So from this day onwards, I will wait,
For you to come and tell it straight,
I hope the decision you choose is me,
Can’t keep my hopes too high,
I’ll just have 2 wait and see.

Lonely Nights

2008-08-09T19:22:00.002+08:00

Since you’re gone
There is an empty space
Since you’re gone
The world is not the same

I go back to the places we’ve been
It feels like you’re still there
I live all those moments again
Wishing you were here

Since you’re gone
There is a lonely heart
Since you’re gone
Nothing is like it was

There are memories all over the place
Bringing it back all so clear
I remember all of those days
Wishing you were here

Since you’re gone
There is a heart that bleeds
Since you’re gone
I’m not the man I used to be

I follow you're steps in the snow
The traces disappear
We know what we’ve lost when it’s gone
I’m wishing you were here

All those lonely nights
I lied on my bed and cried
I still think of you
Yes I do

My Special Friend

2008-08-07T21:10:00.001+08:00

There are so many things I'd like to say.But that would take me all day.Now I wonder where to start.Guess I'll say whats in my heart.There is one thing I know that's true.I'm so blessed to have a friend like you.Thanks for always being there.And showing me how much you care.As my new life starts to unfold,And I am learning how to take hold.There are times I don't know what to do,But I know I can always turn to you.Our friendship is one of a kind,One most people never find.I never knew from the start,Just how much you would touch my heart.I'm so glad you came into my life,You have filled it with so much delight.The connection we have, was not planned.But it is there every time you hold my hand.I love the way you turn on your charm,Every time you hold me in your arms.And the sparkle in your eyes I see,Every time you come close to kiss me.So while we wait to see if this is right.I'll enjoy the way you hold me at night.If the time ever come for us to part,You'll always be right here in my heart.You'll always be my best friend,Forever and always until the end.

写给自己

2008-08-06T21:11:00.002+08:00

人生中很多的事情都是那么的突然不能预料，

所以，每个人的人生都不那么的完美

其实，完美的人生，并不是真正意义上的完美

而是，自己的感觉完美是相对的

曾经失去过美好的东西，却留下了美好的记忆；

昨天，我在网上看见以前的好友

心里别有一番心情,

是曾经的相依还是后来的回忆

以前的自己总感觉已经长大了思想成熟了

可现在来看

以前的自己并不成熟，

人生是个过程是个不断成熟的过程

遇见的事情永远都不会是对的

谁知道你注定会来到我的生活

谁知道你注定会离开我的生活

人与人之间的擦肩而过

并不是两百年前的回眸一笑

命运是可以自己安排的

但是需要的勇气

它可以主宰你你也可以告诉它你要改变

顺其自然固然轻松而无悔

但是谁又能真的无怨无悔

拨开弥漫在心中的一片云雾

看见真正的自己，

原来心中已受了伤，

是昨日的伤痕还是今日的伤痕，对于已经受了伤的人

已毫无意义

能够告诉自己的只有虚伪的忘记以前的不愉快

昨天的昨天的昨天

明天的明天的明天

用经历了岁月的双手

抚摸自己的伤痕

心中无法形容的一种滋味

使我想起了一句话：自作自受

儿时喜欢雨天的气息，现在却感到雨天另有一番的心意

瓢泼的大雨淋在身上，希望可以冲刷心中的伤痕

放开沉重的包袱，寻找新的港湾

像那首歌中唱的：

别哭，我最亲爱的人，

今夜我如昙花绽放

在最美那一刹那凋落

你的泪也挽不回我的枯萎

别哭我最亲爱的人

可知我不会再醒

在最美的夜空中眨眼

我的梦是最闪亮的星光

是否记得我曾骄傲的说

这世界我曾经爱过

不要告诉我永恒是什么

我在最灿烂的瞬间毁灭。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。

超级伤感文章

2008-08-05T22:19:00.001+08:00

思念，有多少重量？需要多少坚强、理智才能够承载？总是在喧闹的街头，错身而过的人群，相似的

身影，片刻的失神；总是在囚禁自己的昏暗小屋，看见每一件事物，听见每一阵声响，思念起那个人；总是

在夜半冰凉的被窝，无法自制的呢喃着一个熟悉到不能再熟悉，又遥远得不能再遥远的名字；总是在心底，

有个小小的声音提醒自己：为什么还是忘不了？……总是，总是被思念紧紧缠绕。学习着承受分离，却学不

会承载思念。气温最近下降得有点吓人，不知道那个不会照顾自己的人有没有记得加衣？感冒了吗？

风之爱

2008-08-03T22:50:00.003+08:00

爱在风里，它随风来，也随风去他可以留，也可以选择离开，我不否认我爱过他，但是他和那些美

好的回忆已经随风而去了，我也不想再去追那飘渺的一切，因为那是回忆，我不想活在回忆中，我

同时感觉到我爱上了别人，所以要将回忆留在这~~~~

那天是很有意思的一天，我和李志约好一起走，范旭也一起走，我们晚课后刚走出校门，就看见水

笑了，我看见水笑后就对着范旭喊：“范旭，今天有美女送你回家了~”范旭看见水笑后马上就怕了，

拔腿就跑，他和李志去取车，我和水笑早就埋伏在那里，范旭不敢出来，再院子里绕圈，水笑近了

去，一眼就看见了范旭，范旭只得跑，于是我们就开始飚车了，我看跟不上他们，于是就喊了一

声：“李志，你给我站住~”我的话音刚落，就听见马聪的声音：“哎呀哎呀~~~不好啊”李志虽然停下

了，可听马聪这么说马上开始骑快，我想叫他，可没说出口，于是我就追上去了…………

现在，水笑和范旭开始飚车了，我和李志在后面讨论，他说：“那小娘们，骑的很快啊，范旭惨了

~”我说：“那要是你呢？”我这样问他，他毫不犹豫的说：“要是我，就踹死她”我吓了一跳，我

说：“可他是女孩子啊~？”“女孩子怎么样，我照样踢他。”“………………”我什么也没说，心理想，

他算男人吗？？

水笑紧跟范旭不放，范旭只有逃的份，到了交通岗，眼看就道红灯了，范旭一下子冲了过去，他认

为水笑一定过不来，回头看看，水笑果然没跟上，范旭非常得意，将手背到后面，得意的笑了，范旭

向有看。没有，他特别得意，当他左看时，他下了一跳，差点从车上摔下了，原来水笑正看着他笑，

范旭明白过来，他停下了，他对李志说：“打电话给我姐，我受不了了！”我说：“李志快走啊”说实

话，我很讨厌范旭这个电灯泡，李志说：“华，再等5分钟”水笑似乎明白了什么，她说：“你们别说

了，我走了”水笑得意的笑了一下，之后就走了……

水笑走后，就剩下我们三人，范旭走走停停。我想让李志和我走，可他不走，我不想威胁他，只得

跟他走，走到拐弯处，范旭说：“华，你快走啊，小娘们都走了”我说：“不~我不走啊~~”他说：“你老

跟着我们，真烦人啊~”我看看李志，说：“我走了，你别后悔啊”他急了，忙说：“范旭你白啊，她走了

明天谁给我200元啊？”范旭说：“他能给吗，耍你呢啊”李志看着我说：“怎么样啊，算数吗？”我看

他那眼神，心理很难受，我说：“恩…………”范旭到家了他走了，就剩我和李志了，他说：“你真要我

送你回家？？”我不语，我知道他不会的，可是还是怀着希望说句：“是啊”他说：“我的天啊，我不

要”我没说什么，到他家后我就走了，他也走了，只留了一句“明天别忘了”……

后来呢我追上水笑，她问：“怎么没让他送你回家啊？”我没回答她只是和她在风里骑着…… 我把

回忆记在这里，回忆在可我走了，我去爱那个值得我爱的人了…………

我不是不爱你

2008-08-02T17:46:00.003+08:00

原来，我不是不爱你

只不过

爱的终点是不爱

我们已经走到了终点

停站的爱情已经不需要检票了

就算再忧伤

眼泪也不该再流了

丢下自己珍惜的很难

不如寻找珍惜自己的

爱上你没有后悔

后悔的是没有在对的时候爱上不对的你

爱情从来没有输赢

有的是付出和不知道什么时候破碎了的心

曾经的地久天长原来只是繁华中像肥皂一样的泡沫，

当所有的灯光不再闪亮，

泡沫就失去了让它五光十色的表面支撑，

最后只能在黑暗里破碎。

这个年代这个城市已经没有了让我那个肥皂泡沫继续漂浮的理由，

与其让它破碎，

我选择去到另一个城市寻找另一种灯光继续绽放它本应有的美丽。

直到它成为事实，

直到用完美去让它再次妖艳。。。。。。

不要说恨我，

这个世界恨我的又何止你一人？

我已无力顾忌你的恨。

让所有的爱恨和幽怨随我的离开而消失吧！

我不爱你，

只是曾经想要和你地久天长，

比翼齐飞，

甘苦与共，

生死相随。

如今，

地久天长成为了永远无法实现的诺言，

比翼齐飞也只是最最荒凉的梦境，

甘能与共苦又何处去？

生死相随的永远是想象中的千古佳话！

那么，

你也不要再说爱我了，

假如你的爱是为了让我心碎和更加疲惫。

因为我，

再也不相信你嘴巴里的爱情。。。。。。

鱼的水

2008-08-01T22:32:00.003+08:00

鱼对水说：你看不见我的眼泪，因为我在水中。

水对鱼说；我能感觉到你的眼泪，因为你在我心中。

我不是鱼，你也不是水。你能看见我寂寞的眼泪吗？

鱼对水说：我永远不会离开你，因为离开你，我无法生存。

水对鱼说：我知道，可是如果你的心不在呢？

我不是鱼，你也不是水。我不离开你是因为我爱你。

可是，你的心里有我吗？

鱼对水说：我很寂寞，因为我只能待在水中。

水对鱼说：我知道，因为我的心里装着你的寂寞。

我不是鱼，你也不是水。我寂寞是因为我思念你。

可是，远方的你能感受到吗？

鱼对水说：如果没有鱼，那水里还会剩下什么？

水对鱼说：如果没有你，那又怎么会有我？

我不是鱼，你也不是水。没有你的爱，我依然会好好的活。

可是，好好的活并不代表我可以把你忘记。

鱼对水说：一辈子不能出去看看外面的世界，是我最大的遗憾。

水对鱼说：一辈子不能打消你的这个念头，是我最大的失败。

我不是鱼，你也不是水。现在的我只想要一个一辈子的承诺。

可是，你负担得起吗？

鱼对水说：在你的一生中，我是第几条鱼？

水对鱼说：你不是在水中的第一条鱼，但却是在我心中的第一条。

我不是鱼，你也不是水。我们都不是彼此生命中的第一个，

可是，你知道吗？你却是我第一个想嫁的人。

鱼对水说：为什么每次都是我问你答？

水对鱼说：因为我喜欢在问答中让你了解我的心。

我不是鱼，你也不是水。为什么你总是让我等待？难道你不知道，等待=失去信心=放弃。

如果我是鱼，而你是水，那该多好！水永远都知道鱼的想法，因为鱼在水心里。

但是我不是鱼，你也不是水。你永远都不知道我是如此深爱着你，

因为我也许根本就不在你的心里。

如果我是鱼，而你是水，

那该有多好·····

不是不去爱，爱了也是一种伤害

2008-07-30T22:45:00.002+08:00

天空和大海相爱了,但是他们的手无法牵,他们无法让爱继续,天空哭了,泪水洒在海面,即使受到惩罚,

天空也要把灵魂寄给大海,从此海比天蓝这是您发给我的信息,接着您告诉"老猫死的时候小耗子给

我送个花圈”您怎么可以说这样的话呢？难道你不明白我对你的心吗？你告诉我你很累，也很难

过，看到这些我的眼泪已经悄悄的滑落了、、心在隐隐的作痛、、、对不起一定是我让您难过了,我的

罪责是不可原谅的,我总是那么任性那么过分.您已经很辛苦了,可我还给您带去那么多的烦恼对不

起.对不起!!! 我该怎么做才好呢？您为什么要那么难过呢,是为了什么? 您是一个那么乐观的人,难

过成那样我简直不敢想象是怎样的一种伤害我能做点什么?为什么要这样呢为什么? 你是天空是

吗?师傅? 为什么我是海呢?我不要做海,我不要做海不要不要永远都不要永远都不要是为什么好吧

就这样吧就按您说的您是天高高再上让我成为海只要你能快乐只要你不再悲伤就当我们从来都没

有见过从来都不曾相识过就这样吧我不甘心可我又能怎么样呢好吧就这样吧就按您说的您是天高

高再上让我成为海只要你能快乐只要你不再悲伤就当我们从来都没有见过从来都不曾相识过就这

样吧这个世界很有意思,明明在三年前我们已经是陌路人了为什么还要让我们重逢呢?故意在捉弄

我们,不过,也许是因为我们还有这么一段尘缘未尽吧所以再让我们认识一次增添了这许多的愁这

么多年了,我真的不曾有过这么强烈的感受,因为一个人而变得积极变得坚强变得勇敢变得那么果断

也变得狠心(对他)了.我觉得自己找到了一个方向找到了动力!可我全然没有把您的感受细细的体会

过. 是啊.我太盲目太冲动了也太任性了.以至于伤害了你伤害了他,也伤害了我自己. 前天我和他又

说起这件事,我坚持我的决定.他哭的象个孩子.我真想过去抱抱他.可我没有,我告戒自己如果这一

次你下不了决心你永远也下不了决心.,会越伤越深越无法让他明白我的心。我是那么的狠，狠的我

自己都怀疑是不是我自己，我一直也没有睡好总在做梦总在哭泣爱是动力我第一次体验这句话不

过也就这么结束了很可惜满满的遗憾没关系的我会很好的\\昨天看到您那么悲伤的信息我的心都

碎了我是多么希望你能幸福能快乐呀没有想到会那么悲伤是我没有想到的.这不是我所希望的人

家说：喜欢是浅浅的爱，爱是深深的喜欢 .也许您从来也没有喜欢过我，所以也没有什么爱。我也不

知道我是不是爱，我只是想让您开心，怕您会孤单会觉得凄凉所以就用我的方式送去我的关怀。想

让您知道在这个世界上您不是一个人，有人牵挂有人在担心您。生活还是充满了爱与关怀的 . 可是

好象都错了，您需要的是宁静与安详而不是我的打扰我一想到您很痛苦的样子我真的都有死的感

觉我是个敏感的人也是个多疑的人，所以更让您无所适从了抱歉师傅我不知道说了多少回这句话

了，但是一直都在反复的发着我的短信，不过这次我下决心了我真的看到我对你的伤害了看来爱不

全是好的，有时候它真的是一种伤害再以后的日子里，如果您需要我，请你告诉我。要不我也不知

道以后该怎么办啦？您是一只受伤的小鸟。需要呵护与照料，但是我不知道该怎么呵护您怎么去安

慰您。我用我的方式尝试过了，好象是不行，所以我只能默默的为您祈祷了、、、如果需要我请您告

诉我就当我是你的朋友，不用是最好的那种只要是你众多的朋友里一个很不起眼的那一种就可以

了我就很满足了

Lost of My Love

2008-07-28T20:22:00.002+08:00

From the first day that I am layed my eyes on her. I knew she was the one. From the endless night and the dreamfull days. All i could do is think about her. I didn't know how love feels until i met her. She showed me the light, she showed me her love, she showed me my future. And today its all gone. Looking at her for the last time in my life. Feelings rush in my heart for her more stronger. Knowing she belongs to someone else. I just couldn't do anything. I couldn't touch her lips. Omg Its hurts so bad.

When i met her again for the final time. I huged her so hard. Kissing her forhead. As i took her hand to the car. I couldn't stop looking at her. Asking her to Closing her eyes, so I place a Diamond Pendant love gift on neck, and hug her tight and haveing a nice last french kiss. As we go to the movies hand in hand. Looking at her knowing shes my life. But also knowing shes someone else. Omg it hurts so bad.

When i left her at the airport, All i can do was cry. Looking at her for the final time in my life. Hurted me more and more. she huged me so hard that i felt she had the same feelings. But i knew she was just looking for my happiness.

Loveing you

2008-07-25T19:35:00.000+08:00

How are you supposed to know when you have found love? I can tell you. It's when you catch a glance of and angel in the corner of your eye, and double take to feel your heart skip a beet or two. It's when you feel like you are the only one in the room. It's when your heart immediately begins to sing a thousand songs all at once. When you can't feel your legs, arms, or even body for that matter. I have felt that, and it comes with its good and bad side of love. I have learned that love can make you feel like you have all your desires all at once in one moment. You feel like you need nothing else in the world but this one person. Love can be one of the worst experiences when it comes to hurt as well. Believe me that when you are in love it hurts a thousand times worse to feel betrayed, but stuff like that comes with the whole package. You never know till you’re in love how paranoia really feels like. You have never felt jealousy till you’re smitten by love.

Best Friend

2008-07-24T20:45:00.002+08:00

We've talked for hours until we've looked at the clock and in amazement cannot believe where the time went. she's made me laugh so hard the tears just poor down my face, and my stomach hurts. I start sentences, and her finishes them, and vice versa. She knows my every thought, my feelings...my fears. She's been my best friend for the past few years, and even though I've tried to hide my feelings from her, she's always known somehow. We live so far apart from each other, but when I sit alone and think of her which is often, I can feel her. I know when she's sad, and I know when something makes her laugh. I save inside of myself all this love that I want to give only to her...my best friend, and I wonder if fate or destiny or the girl above will someday bring us together. She's the girl I can see myself growing old with. The girl that I can reach across a table and hold her hand, and without a single word being spoken, can tell her what my heart is feeling.I want her to see my tenderness and my soul, and I want only her to be the keeper of it all. she is my best friend and I love her with all of my heart.

See You Soon

2008-07-22T23:21:00.001+08:00

Things turned out so bad.Never imagined we'd both let go of what we had.There's nothing I can do to take this pain away.I just have to live my life with it day after day.My eyes can't hold back these painful tears.As I am living today one of my biggest fears.Experiencing a life without the one I love.Something I never would have dreamed of.All I'm left with is our memories.Of all the laughter we have shared.And a broken heart that just won't heal.Because of the pain that's living there.I thought we would see the future together.And make our dreams come true.I thought I would live to see the day.When I could be held by you.I wish things would've been different.I wish this didn't have to end.But youve said its for the best.For we have lives we first must end.Don't know if our love was ever a mistake.I'll never regret the day we met.Life's just given us two different paths.That we certainly must take.

You've Grown in My Heart

2008-07-20T21:07:00.003+08:00

You've left a mark in my heart that will never erase.You'll always be in my heart, forever.I remember those summer days,Having fun until sunset- those were the days.

How I wish, now, it'd be that easy.Now, things seem to be getting harder,But I'm glad we're still here, as friends.

I hate to see you sad- you get cut, I get cut,That's the way it works in this heart of mine.I wasn't going to let you leave, not you,Because I'd miss you.

I'll always be here for you,And I care when you want to die Or have no reason to live,Think of me and that I care about you.

I've been close to losing you twice.You've been there for me And have put a smile on my face,You're so special, believe it or not.

I'd never do anything to hurt you,I'd do anything for your happiness,And just to see you smile.

No matter where life's path takes us,If you just look back, I'll be right there for you.I pray for your happiness, And I worry when you run away from home,

But I want you to know that in everything you do,I'll support you, And I want to be there with you To see your dreams come true.

After all we've been through- we're still here,And I'm glad to have a friend like you,I don't ever want to lose you,And I'm sorry if I've ever hurt you,You know that wasn't what I wanted to do.

So, please smile and don't forget That in this big wide world there's a little person Who loves and cares so much about you...

Secret Love

2008-07-18T19:35:00.002+08:00

I met you accidentally not knowing that we could turn good friends. i know only by name, until one day i realize that we've been too close. not a single secret to each other. i never thought that you would be true to me the way you do. now, i'm confused who really are you in my life. i'm already engaged and as times goes by feel strange ... i think i'm falling for you. but how can i feel this, i was not suppose to love you, you're too good to be true.

I thought i was the only one who feel this way. one day you got the courage to tell me that you love me dearly. i want to cry of what i heard. it can't be true. you also got a boyfriend then same with me.

I tried not to be fallen for you coz i know i'm just hurting myself. now, you and your boyfriend broke up, you told me that i'm the only one in your heart and mind. but still i can't love you freely, i still love her. i guess it's not the right time for us. the lov we felt was right but we felt it in a wrong time.

I wish though we're not together these special feeling would remain in our thoughts and in our hearts. just remember that i've loved you dearly as far as i know.